*headdesk*

honestly, there are some days you can’t win for trying. today was one of them.

series of small things… and then the bombshell, that all the nice warm shiny happy words we got from our superintendent are possibly really not at all what they seem.

that, plus being thrown under the bus several times…

i’m ready for the weekend. oh, wait… that means dedicated kid time, which is all good, but no down time.

eh. where’s a good holodeck when you need one?

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unconscious mutterings:

The best thing :: ever
Hold :: on
Rapture :: biblical
Cover :: sheet
Restrictive :: annoying
Baker :: and Taylor
Author :: scriptorum
Pill :: boon
Months :: weeks
Valentine’s Day :: manufactured

mouse made a very valid point in the comments on my entry about doing good should beget good. :)

she said, “don’t you think it’s better to be good because being good is decent and honourable rather than as a way to tempt the fates into treating you kindly? and doesn’t it seem to be The Bad Guys who seem to have all the luck?”

quite a decent question, and her comment points out a flaw in my commentary, because i never meant to imply that Life should treat me well because i treat Life well. so, i should clarify.

i lead my life as i do because it seems to me to be the right way to live. it makes sense to me, it resonates with me, and it gives reason to my life. i try to do well by others because there is no other option for me. and i won’t change that approach just because i’ve had a bad day. i’m not sure if we only get one go ’round, but let’s assume that’s the case – if that’s true, you can’t waste time being unkind. and even if you did get another go ’round, why would you want to use your time in any other capacity than being kind?

that being said… i have a hard time some days when it seems that putting out goodness and kindness only harvests ill will. i don’t expect or need gold stars for each action. it does seem to me, however, that the energy you put out is what comes back around to you. and i would like to think that it won’t take 3 or 4 more lives to see it come back. 🙂

and if it does? perhaps i should start wearing a black hat. 😉

unconscious mutterings:

Plaster :: of Paris
Cabbage :: and kings
Jazz :: therapy [huh?]
Darts :: beer
Poke :: the monkey
Bribe :: illegal
Whale :: of a tale
Receipt :: proof
Answer :: dialog
Dentist :: drill

i have a confession to make: Jon Stewart is no longer My TV Boyfriend.

sorry, Jon. you’ve been replaced.

my new TV Boyfriend is Alton Brown. he’s good looking, funny, a bit of a geek, and a foodie. and just when i thought it couldn’t get any better… comes his road trip. that’s right – not only is he a hottie food geek, he’s into motorcycles. oh, and a cinematographer with a science background. and looks *damn* hot with a little bit of stubble. and that picture of him looking all cute and yummy and like he knows a little secret, sitting there in front of the diner with his road gear on? yum. that could only be improved by the addition of leather. (did i say that out loud?)

Monday Madness (natalie’s lovely little meme which i’ve been very bad about doing):

1. Do you make New Year’s resolutions? If so, what is your most important one?

i don’t, generally, because i have a hard time scheduling important decisions. January 1 – decide something important! yeah, just doesn’t work for me.

however, i did make a fairly New Year resolution, if deciding the middle of the month counts, and that is to live more consciously and mindfully this year. deciding how and where to spend money, and even if to spend it at all, how to give back… eh. it’s a whole big post that’s brewing. the links in the sidebar under ‘mindful’ should give you a hint as to where i’m headed these days, tho.

2. Easter is coming. Many Christians give up something for Lent. Do you give something up for any reason (or season)? What is it this year?

in the past, i’ve tried to take something on. sacrifice for the sake of personal penitence doesn’t seem especially meaningful to me. taking on something (volunteering at a soup kitchen, for example) rings truer to my sense of Lent, which is about reflecting on what it means to be christian, and how you choose to put that into practice.

this year, i don’t know if i have it in me to take on anything else. i’m not sure what i’ll do. maybe just revisit my schedule and book in time for family one night a week.

3. Do you watch the Super Bowl? If so, do you watch it with a group? If not, what do you do while the game is on? Anything special?

what sport is that again? 😉 seriously, been to one game party in my life, and that was enough.

4. Would you miss Monday Madness if it stopped permanently?

yes! 🙂

5. Name at least one theme for MM questions. Share at least one question for that theme.

hobbies. what’s the most unusual hobby you have? and how did you get started with it?